Kitty Insomnia

"When my body refused to sleep, my mind flew away finding you, in the ocean of my thoughts."


It’s the time of the year again where family gathers, eat roast turkey & exchanging presents.

I don’t celebrate. Mainly because of religion issue but other than that, I have no other reason to celebrate anyway.

No presents for me. No decorative trees, no candy stockings, no carols, no cards, no family gathering. Oh, not to forget no Santa which I don’t believe the existence.

It’s stupid for parents to actually tell their kids that this particular fat man dressed in red exist. HE DOESN’T!

He’s too fat to even crawl down your tiny chimneys & he doesn’t give out any presents. He doesn’t own Toy-urs or whatsoever.Your parents bought them for you. Enough said so don’t be stupid.

Please get this fact right adult. Don’t con your kids based on your own stupidity. It’s disgraceful. Pfft~


If Santa exists, I’m Virgin Mary. Period.


Nonetheless, I would like to wish Merry Christmas to all who celebrate.
Have a wonderful year ahead and Happy New Year.

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p/s: I know it hurts. But I try to bite my lips just so that tears won’t fall to the ground. I wrapped all of my sadness and placed it in a box. Hopefully, one day I can throw it away just so that you can’t see how much I’ve suffered and all you ever see is a smile on my face.




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It started to rain heavily at noon and it was cold. Feels like winter although it never snowed here in Malaysia. I wish….

I had my knitted sweater on, grab my bag pack and laptop with a big brown umbrella and headed outside. Mum’s waiting.

We had an agreement last night. I’m supposed to spend the night with granny in Air Keroh since she’s not feeling well. Grandpa wasn’t much of a help anyway. He’s out station…..somewhere enjoying his holiday. Swt


While in the car, I plugged my USB on the radio. I wanted to listen to his voice desperately. His album was playing; I had a smile plastered on my face all the way to Air Keroh.


I skipped a few songs just so that I can get the chance to listen to my fav song before reaching granny’s.

There it is…..’My Precious’ was in my head and now it’s clear in the car. I was starring at the window beside me, looking at those tiny raindrops that hit the earth. It was surreal. I love how this feels……when it rains, I had my fav song on…..and I am alone in my world.

It seems that I block every reality I had at that moment. I only have his voice in my head. I can hear every single tune, every single tone, his every single guitar struck, his every single breath and every single heartbeat.

As if he was mine for the moment. As if I was trapped in his wonderland, never wanting to come back. I wish to stay…….forever if possible.

It’s been a while since I had this particular feeling. I love every second of it. Wish it never stop.


Geun ah……why do you have to make me fall for you? ^.^






My precious……indeed you are to me.

That angelic voice captured my soul, I’m struck.

No words can explain how I felt about you.

Not even Shakespeare’s sonnets or Yiruma’s melody.

Even when there are only rain drops from the sky,

It feels like snow to me.

Sit right next to me and sing me your lullaby.

Stay with me for the night.

Because you’re just too precious for me……







p/s: my first love was like the first drop of snow in winter. Fell from the sky, cold & pure. When I try to grab and hold it with my warm hand, it melts. No matter how hard I try to preserve it, it’s gone. Even when I know there’s hundreds more snow falling, I only want to grab that first fall, because I know…….that feeling will only happen once.




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Hiatus mode

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Yes, it's been a while since I blog anything. The last was somewhere in September.

October & November seems to be missing in action. It's not that I don't have anything to write on. I just don't have the mood and time.
I was pretty much occupied with finals, exams and projects. Then again, it was a lame excuse. Sorry.

I should have paid more attention on my writing rather than sulking for some fucking loser that in the end, means nothing to me.

Ahhh.....to wrap it all up, October and November seems to be a bumpy ride for me.

Why so? Cut it short. Life's short. wtf?

Ok, back to the topic. I shall try & write down what happened on couple of months ago. If I manage to remember every single details.

My memory has been lacking this few months. I'm old. heh~


Oh, darling has a twitter account. I didn't plan on making one till he actually has one. So yea......now I do have an account there. Wanna follow me? cutekittycatz

Well, if you google that nick.....pretty much almost everything is me.



It's nice having him around in my life. Following him. omg. I sound like a stalker now. HAHA
Aren't I? teehee~
Baby, you know how much I wanna be near to you right? Ok fine. I'm a stalker. Shot me.

Nonetheless, he ever care less. He loves me. We love each other. LOL


Ahh......I miss him badly. He's been on hiatus mode lately. Ditto.
At least I know I don't miss anything from him. ^.^



Shall update more. Wanna mix Milo with oats now. Hungry. Yea.....I'm weird. That's the least of your worry, trust me.
Tata!







p/s: being next to you feels like I'm in heaven. just minus the venue. I'm still on earth. heh~



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