Last night, I called just to hear your voice....
I miss those sweet voice,
Serenading to me.....as I fall asleep.
Last night, I cried...
While hearing you sing your songs....
Those heavenly music pierce through my heart.
It hurts....
To know that you can never be my lullaby.
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Well, I know the feeling,
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge,
And there ain't no healing,
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge,
I'm telling you that, it's never that bad,
Take it from someone who's been where you're at,
Laid out on the floor,
And you're not sure you can take this anymore,
So just give it one more try to a lullaby,
And turn this up on the radio,
If you can hear me now,
I'm reaching out,
To let you know that you're not alone,
And if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell,
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone,
So just close your eyes,
Oh, honey here comes a lullaby,
Your very own lullaby,
Please let me take you,
Out of the darkness and into the light,
'Cause I have faith in you,
That you're gonna make it through another night,
Stop thinking about the easy way out,
There's no need to go and blow the candle out,
Because you're not done,
You're far too young,
And the best is yet to come,
Well, everybody's hit the bottom,
Everybody's been forgotten,
When everybody's tired of being alone,
Yeah, everybody's been abandoned,
And left a little empty handed,
So if you're out there barely hanging on...
p/s: oh baby, if only you could be my lullaby.
What does it feel like to see a huge hole right in front of you and INSISTS on walking straight into it?
Yes....you damn well know that you'll fall.
Of course you can't help but to fall and probably broke a few bones or heart while you're at it...
Because....
You've must be blind.
le sigh
That's what I thought....
More like....that's what I felt last night.
Walking and falling into that hole wasn't fun at all.
Geez!
You told me it's going to be fun....
Hell no...no joy ride here.
Never really like roller coaster anyway.
Sick to my stomach.
You fall, you pick yourself up and walk away....
As if it was that easy kannn...?!
Well, nothing that a huge tub of Macadamia Haagen Daz can't fix.
Actually, mine to blame.
Saw it coming.....but couldn't help it.
Sounds stupid, but that's the fact.
Sometimes you just gotta admit how much of an idiot you can be at any point of your life.
This is it for me....
Ughh!
Hah....but seriously,
What the hell was I thinking....
Sitting there....staring at you while you sleep on my lap.
Thinking that you'll probably be mine...someday.
LOL
Oh com'n....
Told you that daydreaming will kill you one day....
Too stubborn to listen right?!
So, this is what you get then....
Bite that fingers of yours....
Till it bleed....
Cause you know you won't feel that throbbing pain....
Till you learn how to let go.
p/s: silence is deafening.
There I go....done it again.
Without realising it....I've hurt you, for the second time.
You've probably notice by now...the other side of me.
Yes....'she's indeed different.
Total opposite of me.
No matter how much I hate being 'her' at certain times...
I can't just kill her let alone ignore her existence inside of me.
Yes, 'she' can be bitchy, cold and rude.
Basically she's just heartless. Ice cold.
Point blank hatred.....dark & emotionally retarded.
I'm trying to understand her.
But it seems impossible.
There's a reason why I locked her up in this blog.
If she were to let loose....
Life would be difficult.
Life might be easy by her way...
Since ignorance is bliss.
No one actually acknowledge her existence.
Except you...for the first time....
Someone actually sees her!
People might come across her once in awhile....
But that's just about it.
No one actually tries calling out her name,
Ask who is she,what she wants and why is she here.
She was left in the corner....
Trying to erase all those memories....
Of what's left inside of her.
p/s: it's hard for you to actually pick either one of us when it's clear all you ever wanted is only one side of me.
There are thousands of possibilities out there for us....
In any form possible.
To which we might care....or might not notice.
You, on the other hand....has the possibility to be stuck with me. Or not.
Am I being over confident...?
Probably....or maybe.
The picture of us being together.....is still vague.
I wouldn't know.....
Is there even a slightest possibility?
Ahhh....so farfetched!
Let's not go there.
Just move along, go with the flow and see where we might end up.
Sounds adventurous?
Usually, this is not me.
I prefer to play it safe.
Then again it's high time to break all the rules and enjoy.
After all, you only get to live once.
You, my dear......are far beyond reach.
Well, that's what I thought initially.
A person like you.....with a person like me...
More likely to end up crash and burn, rock star style!
LOL
Remembering the times when you sang those songs at the cafe.
I see you....the real you.
Glowing with pleasure and excitement.
It's like you're in your own world.
Filled with music and passion.
I admire that.....I truly do.
I wish time could stop....at that moment itself.
Wouldn't want to let go.
On the other note,
I'll try my best to understand you better....
But please do give me some time.
As you're different from the rest.
Yes....I might be slow at times.
Bear with me, ok?
p/s: I wish I can drown into this madness with you.....right here, right now. If only.....
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