Kitty Insomnia

It's been a while dear blog.
Thousand apologies.
haven't been much of a writer myself these few months....hence hiatus mode.

Now, where do I start?
Last week? Last Monday...?
Everything seems fast....the progression of our relationship has come this far.
Within less than a week.
I must say....I was impressed at first but then I'm scared.
Why?
The fact that where we are right now.....this state....
You remind me of myself....
Back in the days.
Where I used to be in charge.
But now that you're here with me....
You took my role.
I didn't know where I stand anymore.
Should I be me?
Or should I be someone that I used to know...?
Someone who's trying so hard to please the other...


I should have not play this game in the first place.
It'll eat me....I know it will.
Then again it's now or never right.
You only get to live once.

I hope that this time....
It won't hurt that bad....
Shattered heart can't be whole any longer.
Not with someone like you.
The one I know that will crush me.
With pure sweetness words.
Faith is all I ever have.
Please don't fail me now.



p/s: I know I'm doomed when I start to miss you....