Kitty Insomnia

You're 26 now, on the 26th of January.

Today would be your special day.

It is....afterall, every day is special to me when you are around.

I celebrated your birthday today.

With the rest of the Cassies.

As always.....

Each year, I'll buy a cake to celebrate your birthday.

Even when you're not around.

It's ok cos I know one day you'll be here....

You might not be in front of me right now, but in my heart....you're always there.

Each year...I'll buy a present for you.

Each year...I make a wish for you.

This year.....I hope you can make it here cos I've missed you....

For more than 3 years of not seeing you....I've gone insane.

I want to see you, I need to see you....

Seeing your birthday wish makes me smile.

Knowing that you're doing well....

I know you are strong...

I wish I could do the same.

When you tell me that "it will be good if all bad things vanish from today and thereafter, and everyone could be happy...."

I believed you....I really do.

I hope it's true.

Since I'm crumbling inside out.....I can no longer stand on my own.

I need you to pick me up again.....like how you did 5 years ago.....

I hope to keep on celebrating your birthday....each year without fail.

And one day....you'll be right here next to me.

"김재중, 생일 축하 해요 오빠~!!! ♥♥♥"

p/s: my love for you is pure, no matter what others say. i know deep in my soul, you are there for me.....loving me, believing me & dream with me when no one did.