Kitty Insomnia

Like a piece of paper,
I'm disposable.
Like a can of soda,
I'm disposable.
Like a weed by the pond,
I'm disposable.

Disposable....am I?

I recently pledged as an organ donor via online.
I felt damn good about it...my long lasting dream, one of.
Never felt better....for once in my life, I feel useful.
Despite the fact that mum or anyone else told me how useless I can be at times.
Despite the fact that I can never do anything right.
Despite the fact that I'm just being me....

It's an achievement....to actually being able to help someone else in need just by donating your organs when you're dead.
It's not like I'll be needing it anyway after that.
What a waste.....seeing those healthy (yes, I am healthy ok) organs just rot six feet under.
Someone might see through my cornea,
Someone might breathe through my lungs or heart valve,
Someone might run and sweat through my liver and bones.

But that won't be happening anytime soon....
As mum strongly, and I mean damn strong against me being a useful and unselfish person for once in my life.
Why...?!
For God's sake...I'm trying to be a kind human being here and the least you could do is support me, not patronizing me!
I feel sad for you....for not looking at the same page as where I am now.
You told me you feel sad if one day I'll ever be dead......they will cut me up and auction my organs away.



Dear mum,

What you see now.....it's just a body. When I'm gone, I won't be needing any of it. So will you.
So, from the bottom of my heart or any of my living organs, I want to donate it.
Can you see that??? Can you???!!! I guess not.
You're more concern on how I'll look like when I'm dead than those people out there who's suffering without an actually healthy organ to live by.
That's sad....really sad. What has the world turn into....
More selfish people rule the earth.....more people die while you idiots watch.
Why can't we help them while we can?
I seriously don't understand....sick minds.
*le sigh*
Then again no fret. I'll pledge again when you're gone, mum.
In that way you can't say anything to me being an organ donor.
Ahhhh......

Sincerely,
Your one and only selfish daughter.
=)