Kitty Insomnia

Hello blog.
It's been a while.
Sorry for abandoning you for weeks....or months.
Been busy, with pretty much of everything.
From coping up with gradsingapore publication, Health & Sciences, M100.... to coping up my feelings for you.

It's tiring.....damn tiring.
Mentality and physically.
Thus, I'm sick....for almost a week now.
You should hear my sexay voice.
So drag queen like. pfft!

Lilian told me I look like shit at the office.
Yes, thanks babe for the compliment.
Honest much.
I know I look like crap....
Yes Phoebe, I look pale.
The fact that I'm anemic adds up the dramatic effect of me being more than just a vampire kannn?!

I realised something.
It's better to stand on your own two feet than to actually lean on someone.
Because that person will always let you down by the end of the day.
It's expected actually.

Nonetheless, I know in time of need I do can rely on certain people to actually be there for me.
Namely Jaryd.
He's been there for me through thick and thin.
I still remember how he used to call me on late nights and we talked for hours after my dad passed away.
Even when I can't really talked due to asthma, he patiently waited at the end of the line, asking me to hang up and sleep.
Knowing how stubborn I can be, refusing to hang up....we talked and talked till we're both are tired.
But he never gets tired of accompanying me and being there for me.
Speaking of true friendship. =)

Just the other day as I went shopping in MidValley, I accidentally bumped into him and his gf at Coffee Bean as I'm grabbing my favourite Red Velvet Cocoa.
The last time I saw him was at Paradox Cafe after he invited me to his performance.
We managed to catch up on things....and he asked me how's life and the usual when I spit it out on how I'm having trouble sleeping for weeks.
He gave me that look and told me why I didn't call him....
Hah....my dear, I did call you. Just that you were too busy to pick up my calls.
But it's alright.

There are things that's been bothering me and my mind of cause till the extend of insomnia.
We said our goodbyes as he left with his gf.
Went home, changed, lying on my bed looking at the laptop when....Jaryd called.
He asked if I'm about to sleep.
No....can't sleep.
Brain still working actively for some reason even though my legs and body are damn tired.
The reason he called is to check on me, to see if I'm fine.
Haha you only saw me like half an hour ago and now you wanted to come over and check on me...???

Yes, that's Jaryd.
Even when I told him I was fine.....he refused to believe it.
The effect of knowing me far too long. (which can be dangerous too)
So he came over....at half past midnight and we sat at the living room....talked for hours.
He's like my shrink at times. LOL
Always been I guess.
Without noticing the time we talked till 5am!
Unbelievable indeed!
I can see that he's tired.....but insisting on talking to me since I can't sleep.
At that point I realised how lucky I am to have him as a friend.
Come on!
Who would drive all the way from Subang to Seri Kembangan after midnight just to check on you and accompany you through the morning....listening to you rambling about how fucked up your life can be while you wash the dishes, clean up the kitchen and still ramble till 5am...???!!!
Now, that's a true friend. =)

Btw, he's MINE!!! hahahahahaha




p/s: you told me you've always have a soft spot for me, unknowingly why. I told you ILY. =)