Kitty Insomnia

That one thing that hurts you the most...
It hurts when you miss someone who is already gone.
You keep on missing and hoping that they'll come around for you.
Well, not anymore....
It's over.

Everybody leaves....
One way or the other.
All I wanted is not to get hurt, be hurt or hurt anyone else.

Sometimes it's hard.
To be contented.
It's hard to let people down.
It's hard to ignore your feelings towards somebody you knew.
It's hard to cry in public.
It's hard to eat alone.
It's hard to look them in the eyes and tell them 'I'm fine'.
It's hard to be yourself.
It's hard to pretend.
To be happy when you're not.
To cry out loud.
To bear it all.

It's just hard...





p/s: sometimes I forget how to breathe, smile and wonder.