Kitty Insomnia

Well, it's been a while.
Been hiding from writing for quite some time now.....
Didn't really have the urge to write anything by far.

Will cut the crap & go straight to the core.
Someone has been complaining that my blog is.....ermm, how should I put it.....ahhh yes, EMO.
HAHAHA
Yes, I know that....it's unlike the 'real' me right?

Then again, what is the real me?
Do you know how to describe me?
In what word can you put me in?

Even if you asked me that question, I'll find it hard to tell.
It's not that I won't know who am I tho there are times when I don't either.
That is another part of me that no one will understand.


Dr Jekyl & Mr Hyde
Catwoman
Werewolves
Vampires
The Hulk
What do all that have in common to me?
Ever wonder...?
Well, they all have their own alter egos.
The ones when they change into a total different person.
With a whole new persona, depending on the situations.

Yes....I'm one of those.
It's more like a gateway you can never get to enter completely.
You are either stuck in between or left on one side or the other with extra 'baggage' to carry for the rest of your life.
I can never get to choose who I want to be.

I was ask a question last night.....
"If you were given a day to be whoever you want, who will it be?"

I couldn't answer that....cos honestly, I wouldn't know.
I only told him I want to be someone else, which I'm not.
For the past 25 years of being me.....I find it tiring.
Therefore, I find other alternative.
The dark side of me can only be shown here I guess....in my own space of blog.
I find it hard to vendor my anger, sadness & everything else in between out in the public.
Yes, I do swear occasionally when it's needed.
I try not to stab people right in the face.
I try not to push you down the road & watch a lorry hit you.
I try my best....not to do all of that.

The darker side of me....are kept here.
When I blog or write, I love the company of my own world filled with my imaginations. Me & only.
I could write how I stab you or how it feels like seeing you dead.
Because in real life you & I know that won't be happening....


- to be continued -




p/s: the same girl who laugh & talks a lot & seems happy is also the girl who may cry herself to sleep....